Ok, I'm really back!

So, it's been a tough last 6 months. I'll get to that later. As far as Project 40, the stress diet is working really good. My new favorite (single) hobby is shopping. Ok, not that I didn't do it before, but clothes fit wonderfully now. I've found a whole new confidence (that was really always there, but hid from me for a little while).

And I also have a job to dress for.
And I also have a house to shop for.
And I no longer have a significant other to cook for.

So, I'm almost 40, and where am I? Aside from being more depressed and anxious and panicky than I've ever been in my life (not even when I was going through my divorce was I this bad), I guess all I have to say is that I look good, and I have a great job - that hopefully I'll not screw up because I literally can't get out of bed or focus on.

Well, maybe I can get a box unpacked tonight, since I've been in here a month and I haven't done anything other than exist in here. Heartbreak is devastating - and I guess all I can do is take it one day at a time.

I'm back!

I figured now that the whole "it's cool to be a blogger" thing is pretty much done, I'll start up again.

I have one main reason for doing this, and I'm planning on calling it .... get this .... you're gonna love it ...... I think it's hokey, but I had to do something to get me motivated ...... Project 40!

Yeah, yeah, I'm turning 40 this year. I have about 9 months to get my sorry-ass life back in shape (ok, my sorry ass body and my sorry ass life). I figure - I could either have a baby in that time (NOT gonna happen), or spend it doing something more productive, like take care of myself and enjoy every minute of it :-) And yes, I know that once I actually get myself in shape and start to take care of myself, and make enough money to be able to support myself again (long story - damn, it's been along time since I've talked about my life), that TopGun is going to drop me like a hot rock, but I guess I need to do it anyway - this is all about me. If he actually decides to stay with me, it would be a positive - but I don't count on it - I think he's already mentally checked out of the relationship .....

Oh well ... until next time ....